Journey To Oneness
by Karen Winter
In August 2004 a friend of mine told me about attending an
Enlightenment workshop. I had no idea what this was about, but
something told me that I needed to attend. Not knowing what I
was getting myself into, I called and booked myself in. That was
on 15th August 2004 - the day of Amma's Birthday. This was the
first time I received Deekshas. I felt that I was in the right
place at the right time. Two weeks after this workshop I
departed to work overseas for 4 months. While I was working in
Norway, something interesting started to happen. People I was
not able to do healing in my usual sessions, either due to
distance or circumstances, really needed my help. I happened to
have read a book (by pure coincidence) about someone who was
doing healing work by tuning into people and then using an
"energy tool" to clear their blocks. Somehow, after receive my
first Deekshas in Melbourne, I started tuning into people,
seeing where their blocks were, then using an Energy Tool of
Gold Light, I started clearing their blocks. Miraculously, their
problems, pain, issues and imbalances resolved. Was this the
work of Divine Grace, or Amma and Bhagavan?
Over the past three to four years, I experienced periods where
all I felt within was love, joy and peace. This seemed to
radiate out and many people noticed. This had a large impact on
my healing work and produced some incredible results with my
clients. This sometimes lasted for 7-8 months and then I would
lose it again. And then it would come back again, sometimes for
up to 12 months or more. The last time I shifted out of this
incredible love, joy and peace was in February 2004, which
coincided with a very powerful full moon that seemed to bring up
a lot of issues for everyone. Since that time, I have had
incredible waves of emotions rising from deep within me. It was
like I was purging all the old emotions I had been holding onto
from this and all other lifetimes. This period of my life was
like riding on an incredible roller coaster that I did not seem
to be able to get off. Just when things would settle, more and
more of these waves of emotions would well up from within. It
truly felt like I as travelling through and experiencing "The
Dark Night Of the Soul".
This ended for me in June this year. On the 2nd of June, our
group of Deeksha givers in Melbourne, got us all together for a
Deeksha evening, as many were being performed around the world
within a 24 hours timeframe. This was an incredibly powerful
evening where we performed rituals, danced and received
Deekshas. The next day I went along to see my friend Sue for our
monthly healing session we do on each other. She doesn't know
much about Amma and Bhagavan or the Deekshas although I had told
her about them and encouraged her to join us. She had been
assisting me to work through my "Dark Night Of The Soul" which
had resulted in some pretty heavy sessions, but this one was
different. While she was working on me, she could see Buddha
entering me! I immediately knew what this was. It was the Buddha
Energy descending into me. I had this magnificent Gold Light
radiating out from me. She saw Buddha standing on the left side
of me. I then saw Amma on my right side - this was my first
really powerful connection with Amma. She seemed to be making a
few adjustments to me physically, which I felt very strongly.
Sue asked me to keep bringing the Gold Light through me and left
me in the room to process whatever was happening.
June and July went very smoothly for me. I felt as though I had
completely shifted out of the energy of "The Dark Night Of the
Soul". I felt much better, had more energy and things were
flowing more smoothly in my life and in my Kinesiology practice
up until my departure for India on 31st July to attend the 21
Day Process in the Golden City near Chennai. The "21 Day
Process" has been one of the most amazing things I have done in
my life. I have spent time at the teachings of "His Holiness the
Dalai Lama" in India, as well as several months with "John of
God" in Brazil. These two were incredible experiences but what
happened at the Golden City has changed my life forever.
The 21 Day Process takes you through an incredible journey of
firstly looking and yourself and your life, and why we are the
way we are, our conditioning, how we are influenced and why we
act and behave the way we do. Firstly, I saw all the suffering
in my life and then upon releasing that, I saw the suffering of
Humanity. I realised that the entire planet was trapped and that
all of Humanity needed to be freed. At first I was crying
(howling) unstoppably, as I saw the incredible need to help
Humanity to become free from all suffering. Everyone went
through different experiences, many were crying, releasing,
going through emotional turmoil, some were even laughing. Most
of the time I was feeling an incredible sense of peace and joy -
at first I thought maybe I wasn't getting it, but I was assured
that where ever I was at and whatever I was feeling was right. I
found myself dancing around the room on many occasions, feeling
as though I was totally free.
We worked on releasing our past conditioning, negativity and
karma on all levels. We looked at why relationships are the way
they are, and that the biggest mistake we make is trying to
change or understand each other. We saw that life was nothing
but RELATIONSHIPS! We were taken back through our childhood, and
asked the Divine Presence within us to do whatever it needed to
do to alter our childhood where needed. Once again, I danced
around the room and saw myself in my pretty dresses my mother
made me when I was 5 or 6. I was dancing through meadows of
beautiful flowers; I was flying - WOW!
The "21 Day Process" is like the Ultimate form of Personal
Development. It was like have 30 years of Natural Therapies in
just three weeks. The insights that came through the process
were amazing. It is the Ultimate way to change our patterns,
experience our relationships and change all of Humanity forever.
We saw that we were not responsible for what we are. We saw that
our conditioning, our experiences in the womb, our birth process
and our childhood, all impacts of how we are and how we behave.
All of this we have "No Control" over. We have no control, that
we have no control of control! Now I understand why "Control"
has come up so much over the years in my work with Kinesiology.
You do not have control over life - life has control over you.
This conditioning is running through you and you cannot be free
of this. The more we "Control" any aspect of life, the more we
"Struggle". I have been telling my clients this for many years!
â?¦/2 On Day 9 I went through a "Death of the Self" and saw
myself floating down the "Ganges" in a death ceremony. I could
hear water running beneath me as I floated away, and could
actually hear the crackle of flames burning the wood that was
placed on my body. Then I started to fly over India and Asia and
then out to the Cosmos. I was flying on a bed of a Lotus Flower
and flew higher and higher into the Universe, seeing Planet
Earth below. Then I started flying through Galaxy after Galaxy.
Then I was the whole Universe, the stars, I was everything -
Earth, Humanity, all creatures, the plants, everything. I
surrounded Planet Earth in a Billion Petal Golden Lotus Flower
and asked that only Love, Peace, Joy, Happiness & Grace engulf
the entire Human Race and all creatures of this Earth exactly
"AS IT IS"! I felt as though I had died and gone to Heaven, only
to realise that Heaven is here on Earth.
Deekshas at the Golden City were happening 24 hours of the day
energetically. We had very few physical Deekshas performed on
us. The most powerful part of the process was the meditation in
front of the "Cosmic Beings". These are Fully Enlightened Human
Beings who have the power to "plant the seeds of Consciousness"
into us. On Day 10 while meditating in front of the Cosmic
Beings, I felt them physically "Unplug" me from my mind. It was
like something out of the movie "The Matrix" but it was below my
Brain somehow - WOW! During the process, I was gauging my
progress using the Scale of Enlightenment (0-1000) and
Kinesiology. I was very surprised at how fast I was moving up
the scale and from Day 1 to Day 10 I went from 460 to 900! After
discussion with my Dasaji (guide) Utpula, and thinking that I
wouldn't progress much further, she gave me encouragement and
changed my belief so that I could see that I could reach that
level.
My thoughts were passing me by. The mind chatter had lessened,
and I was feeling very peaceful, positive and focused. I
realised that all I had to do was ASK for what I wanted. I
prayed to Amma and Bhagavan to become Fully Enlightened but to
also be fully functional in life. I realised there was NOTHING
to know, that NOTHING matters, there is NOTHING to understand.
That we need to stop understanding our thoughts, stop hooking
into them, that we just need to watch them pass by just like
watching trains at a station. Our bodies are just the Temple
that we live in; we are just "Tenants". Life is "Perfect"
exactly "AS IT IS".
On Day 11 of the Process I reached the complete "State of
Oneness"! Exactly one year to the day of my first Deeksha
workshop! While meditating in front of the Cosmic Beings, I told
them that I was ready and that I saw no reason to hold back any
longer. I asked them if I could be Fully Functionally
Enlightened. I felt like many sets of hands were on my head
giving me Deeksha all and once. I then saw Amma on my left and
Bhagavan on my right. They were operating on the Parietal lobes
of my brain - one on either side. I also felt incredible
Electrical Surges and twangs going through my heart. The session
came to an end and they were still going - they insisted that I
stay in a meditative state until the finished. I got up slowly
and realised exactly what had just happened. Wowww - I was
stunned, dazed, slow in my movements but in complete and utter
GRATITUDE for what had just happened.
As I walked out to get back on the bus, I saw Chris walking
along and told him what had just happened, and cried tears of
joy on his shoulder. My whole body was tingling, especially my
hands and feet as an incredible amount of energy was surging
through me. I could not even move very fast and just stared, as
my whole vibration frequency seemed to "step up". The next few
days I was feeling very drained, dehydrated, needed to take
hydration salts and more water as these adjustments within me
were made. The Parietal Lobes of my brain still hurt and the
headaches, which I had already been experiencing, were not much
better. My body was also doing a massive amount on cleansing,
especially the first 10 days of the Process but this also
continued. I realised that reaching the "State Of Oneness" was
NOT the End but is actually the Beginning! There is no jumping
for joy - "IT JUST IS".
My mind is completely clear sometimes there is absolutely
nothing. Now when I meditate, I see incredible colours usually
end with the Golden Ball. I can now go into a very deep state in
meditation without effort, where I am completely one with
everything. the Cosmos, the sky, the trees, the birds, animals,
people, everything and everyone. Many times during the Process I
would completely leave my body, or been in such an altered state
that I felt I was completely not my body, or somewhere
completely not where my body was sitting. Incredible!!! There is
no Separation, no Loneliness, no feeling of Longing or that
something is missing in my life. I just feel peace, love, joy
and contentment. When you feel complete non-separation, complete
Acceptance of "WHAT IS AS IS", there is only Love - this is
Love. Causeless, Unconditional Love! This is how all the
problems of Humanity will forever be resolved. This is what will
happen to Planet Earth when all of Humanity becomes Enlightened
- at complete Oneness with everything and everyone. You cannot
hurt the other when you ARE the other. There is only ONE HUMAN
BEING. I am not myself any more as the "Self" has completely
gone.
Everything in Life is a Process - even the Universe is a
Process. As the Universe, Galaxies, Sun, Planets and Moon
contract around us, they influence and impact on us. They affect
how we feel, how we think and our emotions. Bhagavan says that
this is often why we have "no control" over our actions and
behaviour from one day to the next because of these influences.
There is no Destination - there is only Freedom. Awakening to
the "State of Oneness" is our Freedom, our Destination. There is
no where else to go - that's life. There is no Ultimate
Experience - "IT JUST IS". Oneness is not the Ultimate
experience! Feeling Joy, Love and Divine Experiences are part of
Oneness. Once we reach this state, which is a constant and
permanent - "I AM" - THAT'S ALL.
I am amazed at how easy it was to attain the State of Oneness.
Although in some ways I feel as though I have been preparing for
this for many lifetimes. I see that there is still a long way to
go, as there are many Levels of Consciousness, as there are many
levels to the "State of Oneness". Being Human is a very, very,
very, very small step on the ladder. ONENESS IS JUST THE
BEGINNING! I give my ABSOLUTE HEARTFELT GRATITUDE to Amma,
Bhagavan and the Divine Presence within me.
Love, Peace & Divine Grace, Karen Fay Winter Director Lotus
Connections Pty Ltd http://www.divinespiritualhealing.com
About the author:
Lotus Connections Pty Ltd is a team of dedicated Health
Professionals and Light Beings whose entire aim is working
towards the Liberation of planet Earth and all her inhabitants,
to full Enlightenment. We wish to bring about a better world for
everyone, and for humanity to live in Divine Peace, Joy, Bliss
and Happiness on this planet. Our focus is for everyone to live
together in Peace and Harmony, bringing in and using the Divine
Grace & Healing Energy.